Going Berserk

Had a long talk with him yesterday...sat down at the comfortable chair at Cafe Cartel but still come to no decision. Just merely talking things out and find where the fault lies between us...What's actually happening between me and him? We talked and talked....and continue the talk over coffee at coffee bean but still no decision.

What is it? What do I want? Why is all these happening to me? Why? Did I do something wrong here? Did I? Am I to be blamed for all that had happened? I think I'm going berserk.

I really think I'm going crazy. HELP ME!