Memories of the Past

Feeling bad today..real bad...I hate myself when I feel this way....Anger...neverending anger....Have I always been like this or did I changed due to past events? I'm sorry to all the people I have hurt....It's human nature to make mistakes and I'm one of them of course.
This is something which was written in a friend's blog which reflects a lot about how I am feeling and how bad my previous love hurts me.

"When you though a person had hurt you a lot, you supressed anger and hatred towards him. Over time, each time that person's face reflected in your mind,your face just turned long and heart raced angrily. You know you haven't let go of the past and what you were doing was just hurting you again.

Nobody owes you a living, but you owe yourself one. Why would you want to own that feelings when you have neither entitlement nor obligation to them? Choose to forgive. I believe in retribution. Hurting others is a temporary satisfaction and guilt will surface when others hurt them one day."

I happened to read previous chapters of her blog and I feel the pinch...Actually I'm not sure who she was referring it to. I thought up till now I have let it go but sincerely I have not let it go fully.