Tuscan's Mind
Everything is as per normal today....but things not settled. Questions on my mind....Doubts...And he keep asking me what's my answer up till today. So what is my answer? I don't have the answer as yet....I'm still thinking and theres several things playing on my mind.
My dear, at times I have visions of you and me....but the visions get blurred time and again. Is there a place in which I could escape to where no one says anything anymore? I wish God will give me the answer to everything....what should I actually do? There's no harm right in getting ahead with it and also in cancelling it. I will think about it carefully and come to the final decision.
Wonder why is it so hard for me to come to a decision. Maybe because I'm so used leading a carefree life no commitment whatsoever to anybody. And is it so bad to be tied down? Maybe because I'm so used to getting to know and meet new people in the past...go wherever I go with whoever I like without worrying that someone out there is worried abt my whereabouts. But was I happy then or now? Hmmm....Still wondering though..Just talked to my mum about my thoughts and feelings and I feel so good...Oh dear mum...what will I do without u mummy? I'm so touched with her soothing words, her constant support and encouragement and the overwhelming love she showers me with. Thanks mummy! Love u so much...so much mum! Feel so protected and loved. It's simply easier to talk to her than my dad. Coz she understands better whatever I am feeling. I just asked her "Mum, can u imagine me getting married now or soon?" And she actually kept quiet. Haha...That means she too can feel I'm not ready for marriage. Told her that whatever decision that I have come to, I don't wish to get married till I'm ready to settle down..be it 2 or 3 years later..maybe when I'm 27 or 28 or whatever till I'm ready. Can't deny I still enjoy my freedom....So whatever decision I have come to,I hope my close ones will give me the support that I need....Please dearies...I need it...Thanks...Love u all so much...
My dear, at times I have visions of you and me....but the visions get blurred time and again. Is there a place in which I could escape to where no one says anything anymore? I wish God will give me the answer to everything....what should I actually do? There's no harm right in getting ahead with it and also in cancelling it. I will think about it carefully and come to the final decision.
Wonder why is it so hard for me to come to a decision. Maybe because I'm so used leading a carefree life no commitment whatsoever to anybody. And is it so bad to be tied down? Maybe because I'm so used to getting to know and meet new people in the past...go wherever I go with whoever I like without worrying that someone out there is worried abt my whereabouts. But was I happy then or now? Hmmm....Still wondering though..Just talked to my mum about my thoughts and feelings and I feel so good...Oh dear mum...what will I do without u mummy? I'm so touched with her soothing words, her constant support and encouragement and the overwhelming love she showers me with. Thanks mummy! Love u so much...so much mum! Feel so protected and loved. It's simply easier to talk to her than my dad. Coz she understands better whatever I am feeling. I just asked her "Mum, can u imagine me getting married now or soon?" And she actually kept quiet. Haha...That means she too can feel I'm not ready for marriage. Told her that whatever decision that I have come to, I don't wish to get married till I'm ready to settle down..be it 2 or 3 years later..maybe when I'm 27 or 28 or whatever till I'm ready. Can't deny I still enjoy my freedom....So whatever decision I have come to,I hope my close ones will give me the support that I need....Please dearies...I need it...Thanks...Love u all so much...
Posted by TC at 12:14 pm::
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