My heart speaks

Spending time with close gerlsfriends......
Laughing my head off when the whole time my heart is crying....
There ain't no tears coming from my eyes....no more....
But this heart still in pain....not at ease.....
I can't answer anymore questions.
Coz I got no answers for it all.....No answers at all....
All I know the pain is still in me.....sigh......
I know its foolish of me....stupid of me.....
Naive of me....whatever lah......
U don't have to say anything behind my back about me.
Coz I know exactly what's going on.....
I have a clear picture now of everything....I do!
But still it doesn't stop this heartache.....
In fact it worsen.....