Bowling Competition

It's bowling competition for my company today. An inter-department competition. Been practising for it for the past few weeks. And today happened to be my first day of woman's problem. Sigh. There goes my bowling tournament. I'm down with menstrual cramps and felt so weak. And mood so down. Tried my best to overcome it though. We managed to get 2nd placing but still I feel bad. Maybe if I played as per normal, my dept have higher chance of winning the comp. My scores so damn poor on that very day. Never ever scored that low when I was practising for the competition. Sigh....nevertheless, I enjoyed myself......Go Go Go Super Powerpuff Gerls!!!!!! hahahahahahahahaha.......

Let's Get WET!!!!!!!!!!!!

Took leave today to go for another outing with the kids! Yeah! Its a ladies day out today....ooopppssss...(not actually)....its a ladies day out with a lil boy....hehehehe....Borrowed sis car again. My elder sis, twin sis and me took leave on this very day to go for an outing together with dearest mummy. About 9.30 am off we went to Wild Wild Wet...Yippeee!!!!! There was quite a heavy traffic at TPE and I paid full concentration on the road. I simply love driving...weeeeeeee!!!!!! hehehe....We were all so excited for the outing. Parking was easy there. Phew! I managed to park better now...so happy! While buying some stuffs at Cheers Downtown East, I came across 7 months old twin babies.....so cute...there were safely lying in their stroller and smiling up at me and twin sis. I fell in love with them at that very moment. So adorable....I change my mind now against not wanting to bear twins. I wish that I can give birth to twins later on....Insya-Allah....

It's so great to be at Wild Wild Wet. Can't remember the last time I went there though. But it sure feels good to be back there again. I swan whole day long from 11 plus till 6 pm. And managed to hope on some of the rides there with my sisters. How childish we behaved dat day. So fun spending time there with my sisters, my mum and the kiddos. They enjoyed themselves too. After that, we went to White Sands to have dinner and do some shopping. Truly a fun and fulfilling day for my family.

All By Myself

Lately, I realised I had been sinking again....I don't want the whole world to know the reason for it...I prefer to keep it to myself....I prefer to confide my inner feelings to those people very,very close to me. Some people can think me as strong, cheerful...crazy....but there are times I tend to sink....sink down low......I feel like letting the earth swallow me up....or drown myself......or just jump from a building.....I'm tired of living......

Maybe it's just that I'm having a mood swing......But the truth is I can't hide it aymore.....I feel tired.....Tired of everything.....I pray that Allah give me the strength to carry on this life.....Give me the strength pls....

Feeling terrible!

Feeling so upset still yesterday when I went to KK....I felt so lost....Really...I felt this terrible pain on my chest. I felt so damn terrible. I felt so guilty. I know I should not have spurt it all out in a harsh way but there I goes again....Been bearing with things and when my wire kinda snapped, all kind of swearing tend to shoot out of my mouth....Boy I hate it man! I hate this temper....I hate being short-tempered. I wish I can be more patient. I wish I could. I'm so sorry for all the things I said to her. I feel that I should have said it all in a nice way. Never knew I will feel this miserable.

I just wanna to sincerely apologise for all that I have said. I really don't mean to swear. I hope that our relationship are not affected in anyway. To me, she will always be someone I treat dearly like my own sister. I hope that our relationship stays the same.