Stop the sighing pls

Can I ever achieve this dream of mine? Something I have been wanting to have for a long,long time....sigh....Will I ever? Confidence going down the drain...damn difficult at times to pick myself up again. Sincerely grateful to those who have been giving me support....appreciate it man! What's up with me? Have you people ever go thru a period whereby you just can't understand yourself and why you simply made the same mistakes over and again? Haizzz...Please lah....why shd I say please? It all depends on me...ME...ME! Relax...no pressure...no pressure.....laugh it off...pls lah calm down....and live it all in HIS hands. Hopefully I got it this time round...Insya-Allah....

If not, I pin all my hopes on someone...you know who you are right....hehehe....