Is it ever possible?

Pardon me to whoever find this entry too EMO
A BIG SIGH to start this entry.
I wanna heal myself....I wanna let it go....This deep down hatred....
Confusion....it's still inside me....This burden I'm still feeling over the years....
Been carrying it around....Is it ever possible to let everything go?
I wish to let it go...I wanna heal beautifully.....I really wish I could....
I don't wish to keep it inside anymore....I can burst out anytime.....
How do I ever....ever free myself from these feelings?
I don't wish to be in denial....all I do all these years is to AVOID.
Yes the truth is AVOID not moving on. Whole mixed up feelings.
I will face it all when I'm ready. I wanna face up to reality. I do.