Is blood really thicker than water?

Sigh....I'm so upset...
The person whom I felt most attached with is creating this barrier again.
In fact saying things which is simply so hurting.....
How can I not feel this way when she say hurting words to me?
When the fact is that we have been together from the time we were not even born.
I'm just too upset.....I feel that someone had just slashed a knife thru my heart.
To her.....You just don't realise how much I love you....
How much I actually crave for your attention....
I love you so much....more than my life if you ever wanna know.

Raining heavily today

Reached office at 10 am today. Supposed to start at 8.30 am.
It was raining heavily in the morning and my umbrella was left in office.
Decided to buy an umbrella at West Mall or any of the nearby shops but all closed!
Tried calling for cab but no one picked up my call.
So I got a great plan in mind. Hehe....Had breakfast at Delifrance West Mall!
Great time on my own. After having breakfast took out my novel to read.
Really don't feel like working today. Sigh....Can I just relax the whole day? Hmmm....
Suddenly thinking of the good times I had in Krabi.
Not rushing for anything....everything so relax.....quiet.....nice.......
Miss all those times I had over there.....

Back from Krabi

Back from Krabi! So sad to leave that place....
All the wonderful times we had there....Me, MiharuChan and EQ!
We visited Phi Phi Island in Krabi! Awesome!
Shall go there again. MUST!!!!!!!!!!

What the hell am I doing at work on a SUNDAY????

It's Sunday today! And hey I'm at work guys!
Simply unbelievable! So what did I do today?
Payments! Keying of invoices! Adjusting financial statements!
Clearing some urgent stuffs before I leave for Krabi this upcoming Tuesday!
Yes Ah! Can't believe I'm finally able to go for holiday with MiharuChan!
And yes I'm going this time with my dear gerlfrens....EQ and MiharuChan!
Simply so excited for the trip......

Went to cousin's engagement yesterday at Bedok View.
A nice and simple engagement. So happy for dear cousin.
People keep asking when I'm going to get married. When ah?
I'm not sure too. My commitment is more on other things right now.
And my dear is taking up degree at the moment and I think it's best
for him to concentrate on his studies till he reach his final year or something.
It's my marriage anyway and I got the right to plan it whatever way I want.
Watched Transformers yesterday! A movie worth every cent!
So exciting....despite me being so sleepy and tired. (Coz of the rewang lah...hehe)
But I'm happy and glad to be of help though.
Feeling so excited lah for my upcoming trip.....Yahoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Planning to go for lots of massages....whatever type of massages they got there. Hehe...
And also foot reflex etc etc etc etc....and these gerls actually thought of watching
the famous Muai Tai...pardon me for the spelling....hehe....
For sure I won't go...all these violence....bloody scenes....arghhh!

Is it ever possible?

Pardon me to whoever find this entry too EMO
A BIG SIGH to start this entry.
I wanna heal myself....I wanna let it go....This deep down hatred....
Confusion....it's still inside me....This burden I'm still feeling over the years....
Been carrying it around....Is it ever possible to let everything go?
I wish to let it go...I wanna heal beautifully.....I really wish I could....
I don't wish to keep it inside anymore....I can burst out anytime.....
How do I ever....ever free myself from these feelings?
I don't wish to be in denial....all I do all these years is to AVOID.
Yes the truth is AVOID not moving on. Whole mixed up feelings.
I will face it all when I'm ready. I wanna face up to reality. I do.

The 3 of US Back Again

Really looking forward to the trip next week!
Yahooooooo!!!!!! Feeling so anxious waiting for the day to come.
Wanna share something here....Finally met an old fren last saturday night.
It came as a big surprise for me. Really did not expect to see him!
Nevertheless it was awkward at first but then everything came naturally.
Spending time just the 3 of us really remind me of the past.
Having a helluva hell of a time together....all the craps....the silly jokes....
Seriously never expect we can become one again. So happy though.
It brings back memories of those happy moments we had together.
Cindy, Moskva & .......Rainerzl.......The warmth of friendship which was lost....
Now it's back again....better than before.....
Yesterday went karaoke with them.....Had a blast time together!
May I know where's the monkey sound coming from??? Hmmmm.....
Hahahahahahahahhahahahhaaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!