I can't go on anymore

What's happening to me now? Suddenly all visions are blurred.
Or maybe I'm sick.....I can't seem to go on anymore....
I'm torn in between two paths......
I wish that the earth will just eat me up....So that I don't have to face all these......
My heart feels empty.....full of pain....anger.....
What's the actual cause of it? There's simply no solutions.....no solutions at all....
Should I actually pursue my own happiness?
Or let others take charge of my life? Can anyone help me?
I feel scared to go on......I can't face this person.....
I rather stabbed myself than to see this person get sick....
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't think properly....My head feels heavy.....
I wish that my frens will protect me....
I feel like hiding away.....I can't face them....
I don't feel like living anymore....
When I was alone yesterday, this thought keep playing through my mind...
I wish to go....go away.....to this peaceful place.......
Whereby I can finally rest in peace.....