Something is wrong with Tuscan

Everything suddenly seems dull....All around me everything seems to be lifeless....Whats happening? Maybe the bad cough is weighing me down...crushing all the excitement in my life...Im irritated by it...Non-stop and not getting any better....pissing me off man...What should I do? Should I cut off this throat? Stupid question right....but please bear with me...Im missing some dear people in my life..why is it they are behaving so distant? Suddenly everyone seems busy...Sigh...Wondering why....

People thought Im having problems when Im not....but I can feel something is wrong somewhere within me.....Im drifting away again....Pls save me....Pls....