Another soul searching day

Went out to look for some stuffs at City Hall.
These days I simply love being on my own.
Sitting down somewhere quiet drinking my fav Caramel Latte.
I wish that nothing unexpected will happen to me.
I pray that everything will goes fine as usual. Please.....
It's so me to get all worried about something which will turn out fine eventually
or bad things which may not happen at all. I have tried my best to change, to stay
calm despite everything but yet I can't shake off the feeling away.....
That what if question forever haunting me.
I get all worried and if anything bad were to happen, something unexpected, I
will breakdown but not for long as always. I tried my very best to stand up to
face whatever more that is to come. But to face this, I'm not sure at all if
I'm that strong to face it all.....alone.

Breaking Fast at Amk

Helped mum with the super busy cooking in the kitchen today.
Was so busy since 2 pm preparing for the food but still yet to finish till nearly
breakfast time. Gosh! So much food and added on with what fav auntie and daughter
had brought as well. Its just my whole family and fav aunt family which was all so fun.
The guys baca yasin first then we break fast together.
After which the guys did their usual thing and we gerls watched the dvd Ayat2 Cinta
at my house hall as only me and twin have already watched the movie.
It touched the hearts of many it seems and elder sis was crying I could see. Heh!
I still can't cry no matter how many times I watched the movie. Hehe.
But its so fun watching ramai2. I'm worried for my beloved aunt condition.
I pray hard that she will be all fine and healthy.

Tuscan's Tuesday

Hehehehe...felt great shopping yesterday! Hehehehe!
Like can't stop thinking of buying shoes etc right now....GOSH!
How to save money like this???? How????
With the weekly entertainment expenses and all!!!!!!!
I keep thinking of the conversations with the cab driver yesterday night.
We talked throughout my journey home.
He talked about his divorce and all....and how life been treating him.
He used to work as an interior designer for this renovation company but was
retrenched or sacked due to some things not being adhered to.
Coz of this reason and some other reasons, his wife decided to ask for divorce.
No matter how hard he begged her not to leave him, she stood firmly on her grounds
with her decision. So he got to move out of his house leaving his 2 daughters as well.
But then he gather all his strength to start life anew on his own by taking a taxi license
and all. And living alone in a one room flat and at the same time, he was not able to
work for about 3 months due to some injuries from an accident on the road.
He even shared how painful he felt during those times.
I felt so sad for him, feeling his pain and all. So sad for him.
And hes not the least bit cheeky nor trying to flirt merely sharing some
stories with me and also telling me that no matter what setbacks we have in life,
never give up and always be strong to go on. Coz its the same thing for him,
he took up a taxi licence and with positivity, he work hard everyday without fail.
He possess a very cheerful nature in fact and he felt happier now.
I'm so happy for him and though hes a stranger, my heart goes out to him.
I can feel his loneliness from having a happy family and now being alone.
So sad isn't it? Before I alighted from the cab, I wished him good luck
and I wish him abundance of happiness in his life.
I told him, "Be Happy Yah".......hehe.....
And u know what he gave me in return, 3 bananas!!!!!!!!! Hahahahaha!!!!
In which he kept half of the bunch for his dinner. So cutelah he.....

Right now, I'm thinking of my 2 kiddos...
Iman is a big boy now.....and hes got a lot of my characteristics!
Haiyoh.....both of them actually follow lots of our siblings characteristics. Funny man.
Their kaypohness and Iman's gila2 nature simply love to laugh loudly
and joking around reminds me of someone....Sape eh????
Sendiri mau ingat ah babe......Ahaks!

Rainy Sunday

Felt good meeting you for the short chillz at our frequent hangout place.
We can always talk openly about anything under the sun.....
Had a good time sharing all my craps with u and urs too...hahaha....
And not forgetting our so called unfinished "movie".....Gosh!!!!
Can't wait to see u again....Huggies!!!!!!

WHAT A DISAPPOINTMENT!

Sigh....we were all so excited for our very first ride in it!
Excused ourselves eagerly from the house function at 9 pm sharp.
Rushed like mad and he drove like mad too having to pass thru all the jams
due to the fireworks!!! But then we still can't make it in time. GOSH!
It's such a great great disappointment for us all. Sigh....
Tried our very best to cheer up one another.
Went for supper and went to watch midnight movie.
But then I slept 20 mins after the movie started.....Hahaha....

It's all out....

I got shocked by all that had been said.
The conversations.....all that was spilled out finally.....
A major misunderstanding....kept silent.....
When actually both parties felt the same way.
Sigh....will always remember those special moments of us...
Glad that all had been said and done.
Hereby wishing you happiness in your life.

Today,tomorrow and forever.......

What I feel today.....
I hope it will lasts forever and ever.....
I know feelings can get complicated at times.
Enjoying these blissful feelings and I hope things will stay the way it is.
No one can understand me better than myself.
But the thing is at times, I find it hard to understand myself either.
But nevertheless, I appreciate your very presence in my life.
I wanna move forward in life and never look back again for once.